This past week feels like it flew by just when I was closing my eyes. But I guess it's true....time flies by when you're enjoying yourself. I am officially 22 years old!!!! YIKES. I woke up on Monday hoping that I would see something that would indicate anything but all I found was another zit on my face...or maybe it was already there. Great... But the great thing was that even though my boyfriend was supposed to come in Monday afternoon after my clinicals, he showed up late Sunday night and suprised me with a huge bouquet of my favorite flowers. (Who doensn't like flowers??!?!?) Anyhow so that started my week off great...but the test on Saturday was luming over my head like an ugly dark cloud full of thunder and lightening. It was an AMAZING feeling *sarcasm*. But he took me out to eat in Columbus..called the "M" and apparently it is a five-star restaraunt. It was dimly lit and was really....high class and sophisticated looking. The food was goooooood :) I was able to spend quality time with him ...especially in Barnes and Nobles to study for my test...seemed like he was jumping up and down at the opportunity...hahaha. Him being here definitely made me wonder if it would have been better if I just found a Cedarville boy. It would be nice to have him around day in and day out.  Then I am reminded that this long distance thing is soo much better because it makes me learn to appreciate and not take for granted the person God placed in my life. Ok..enough talk about this.

I took care of the same 2 patients Monday and Tuesday. I loved it because I felt like I got a bit more closer to them. One patient was a bit nervous about the surgery she was about to undergo so we were able to talk about it for a bit. Being able to offer support is one of the best thing one can do for another person. AHH...I JUST LOVE BEING A NURSING MAJOR!!!!! (ok...i honestly have different feelings when I have to wake up at 5AM...but other than that...) What I am constantly amazed is the fact that all the patients I've encountered and taken care of are nice...genuinely. It's quite a contradiction from what my mother has told me ever since I was little. I'm an American too, but it's a bit different coming from a Asian mother. From the outside, American people are always slandered against or ridiculed at how stuck up they are. I see a completely different side and I am glad for that. I think that's why my mom and I butt heads...she thinks negatively while I don't. Funny how having an opposite outlook can affect so much of your actions and the way you carry on with life. I want to live my life filled with hope and promises for every person I meet. That's the way I was born and I won't do any more changing or second guessing myself in that area.

Question of the Day:

Have you ever though about adoption or fostering?  Has your family been involved in this?  What are your thoughts and experiences?  Is it your dream to some day foster/adopt children (James 1:27  This is pure and undefiled religion in the sight of our God and Father, to visit orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself unstained by the world).

     Of course I've thought about adopting!!!! I'm adopted :) and I feel as though I should somehow be involved. I was given a chance to live ....I know there are so many more children out there that needs parents who can love and cherish them just as much! And I think it's not a bad idea too because I guess I can sort of relate to how the child would feel if he or she was adopted. I also think it's a blessing to take care of one of God's many children :) 

So...this whole entire week has been a waste. That is the first thing that enters my mind screaming when I think about the "overall-ness" of the week. Being down with a sickness is obviously not very fun...not being able to breathe, not keep anything down, or sleep peacefully, just to name a few. It definitely doesn't help with the productiveness.  But it does remind me of an obvious truth.... that I have been blessed to have no deformities and no life-threatening disease. Some aren't so lucky in that area but that is only because God has chosen a different path and plan. I guess this week wasn't such a waste afterall.

I missed not being in the hospital Monday and Tuesday..not that I enjoy seeing sick people, or people who need care. What I meant was that I missed having the opportunity to make a difference. I love meeting knew people..talking to them and getting to know them. And for nursing, it is one of the best ways to serve God through people. I feel that my life is for people-related causes. I've always known this of myself and I am sure about that. Yet I am unsure of my own self in general. Does this make any sense? I'm trying to explain it yet I feel like I am contradicting myself. In my mind it makes so much sense...oh well. I have so much faith in others yet I don't of myself. I should because I am on God's side. I'm so sick and tired of having that mindset that I cannot do anything right. I think this is one of the areas that I really need to get taken care of. I just don't know where to begin. I guess it's time to start praying about it because I've been neglecting it and pushing it back. I want to stop being a mediocre Christian like I have always been content at staying. I want to be sure of myself and to make a stand where it counts the most.

The feeling of "old-ness" is definitely in the back of my mind more now. I'm turning 22 in a couple of days. WHEN DID THE TIME GO?! I feel like I just turned 21 and became legal! (Don't worry...nothing illegal occured that day...haha). YIKES.

So the question of the week...or day..whichever..   

I Timothy 5:23 says "Stop drinking just water, but use a little wine for your digestion and your frequent illnesses."

Do you think that those to refuse to drink wine because they believe consuming alcohol is "sinful" or "wrong" are really missing out on a God given remedy for frequent ailments, such as constipation and indigestion?

          I don't think that just because a person does not consume alcohol they will miss out on God-given remedy. I believe it just depends on each individual. Each person may or may not feel convicted about drinking a small amount. If one knowns that he/she is more inclined to become addicted to it because of family history or experiences, drinking should be reconsidered. But other than that, I believe that it is determined by how the person feels; it is between him/her and God.  

Well, it has been over a year since I have been back on my site to post anything. Looking back and browsing through my previous entries takes me back to what all happened then. Everything mentioned on the posts were something to be happy and excited about, but there were numerous events in my life that were left out that were huge stepping stones. There were a couple of entries where I was pretty surprised at myself for writing because I thought that I was the sort of person who did not like to "bear my soul" .Oh well. Even I surprise myself sometimes.

I have to admit that I have changed. It is part of growing up, I assume. I am not sure where and when exactly that happened, but I feel that it did. Actually, I take it back…I think the most I discovered occurred this past summer when I was living in a 3 bedroom house all to myself. I was without my parents and at least a 24 hour plane ride from home. It was the best time of my life, I believe. Anyhow coming back to school was a bit hard this semester, but I welcomed it and was ready for it, unlike last year. It was a challenge for me to realize that I would be a senior year student taking junior-year nursing classes. Something that struck me as odd when I was with the class was the fact that I felt…“old”. It probably doesn’t make sense to a lot of people but now, I can tell a major difference between junior and senior year students. I’m not saying that I’m more knowledgeable or wiser than any other.  All I’m saying is that there is a difference in the air between the two classes.

I am supposed to be posting up my spiritual and clinical experience while I’m in the MedSurg rotation. I still have a lot of insecurities and I’m not afraid to reveal that.  But as I take a good look at my past, I come to a conclusion that I missed a great deal of opportunities because of my distorted view. I was afraid to take chances because I was caught up in the notion that “I couldn’t do it anyway, so why bother to try?”. How many times did the defeating opinion of myself, cause me to beat myself up over and over? Too many to count, and I’m sure a lot of you can relate. This year, what I want to do is push aside the belief that I can’t do it, or that I can’t make it. I know God made me the way I am and I shouldn’t be ashamed of that. The verses that I turned to innumerable times were James 1:2-3, which says:

            "Consider yourselves fortunate when all kinds of trials come your way for you know that when your faith succeeds in facing such trials, the result is the ability to endure”.

This gives me hope that everything happens for a reason and that God is always going to help me to keep pressing on. I wonder what I will learn and see this semester….

so many things have happend and i havent been good at updating this thing cause you know how it goes...school work starts piling up!!! anyhow this past week i got to witness a birth at kettering hospital. i was definitely moved...and i loved it because it was a beautiful and precious time. im definitely starting to LOVE my classes...im soo glad im a nursing major even though there's a lot of work invovled.

i went to annie's house over labor day weekend with the girls...laura and bethy. it was FUN TIMES.

after getting our bridesmaid dresses fitted for and everything..aaron's parents invited us to go water skiing :)

little ryan came over one afternoon and he was sooo adorable!! funny thing is..he kept reaching for me and wanted to be near me all the time...

we are best friends for life :)

we were back in time to see the fireworks in downtown cedarville!

well this is it for now...back to the books!